Fiona Apple Thinspo

The "Fuck you people" Oath

It's kinda long but hang in there, it's cathartic for me...and perhaps it helps you out.
"So I've got no idea of how to write an oath but it seemed fun so yeah. The stuff I'm promissing is to never be predictible, and always act according time and situation. School won't stress me out anymore, I'll take some pills and goof around and maybe learn something, right? The basics of this document is to learn to relax, and take everything as it goes without making a big deal out of nowhere. I promise to stop worrying about what people think of me and wander a bit, might be fun. Stop making plan after plan. Wander, catch up with a book or series. The biggest promise: STOP TRYING with my mom and people I should care about but I don't. Now on I'll just be a pill popper, self injurer, anorexic girl. And I feel no one will ever find out because no one really cares. Deal with everything following the minimum effort law, that's it. Let go. Cherish every moment with my eccentric attitude, take inspiration for my mood in Warner channel series like I dunno Friends (Phoebe), Big Bang Theory (Penny) and most of all Skins (Cassie). Live and Enjoy. That's a wrapper. The End"

My new thinspo for the day

Hey, yesterday was awful. I argued with my mom to the point she won't speak to me, and that's just perfect for my non-eating plans. She never eats. To grab her attention everytime if she asks me I'll say I've eaten but when she declines a meal I'll use her same excuse. For me it's brilliant. Actually not much but who cares... Just my dad, but when we go out I could eat salad, or something..I dunno I'll figure it out. You see I went to the doctor the day before yesterday and he told me I was stresses out so I'm not going to move a finger in my relationships, people who like me will call, and teen years are shitty anyway, why don't find a way to escape! I've done it...
When I grow up I'll know what to do. Well today I won't eat. Nothing, that's my goal! Let's see if someone is interested enough. Plan for today: Take a shower, go buy dieting pills, make my oath to "fuck you people", post it here, go to my therapy, and go horseback riding. Most of all avoid eating in any context! Fionna Apple is my new thinspo, isn't she just lovely! And let's admit it, I do feel like a criminal today.

Today, as if it would be tomorrow

So I'll start up with calorie counting. Today I managed to go to Starbucks and "have breakfast" there so no breakfast for me, then I bought lunch, which will be a 150 calorie soup, and for supper I tricked my mom into beef and potatoes but I'll go out with a friend "out of nowhere" and tell her I've already eaten. I'll make a daily plan to get to trick everyone differently each day. And I'll get into clases at the gym and stay in school in the afternoons and trick lunches. But let's focus in today. Total Calorie Intake = 150. Goal reached.

 P.S Don't you just love cats? Their aura is soo mysterious

A journey begins, lie, it started long ago

Hi twisted people. My name is Jackie if you wanna believe it, if not, I'm Margaritte, the french skinny girl who has a wonderful relationship with her parents and loves the world. You go choose. I dunno if I'll keep blogging, I just wanna keep motivated in my struggle to dissapear because for me nothing's worth a shot anymore. I chose the name of this blog because Morgana is the goddess of water and magic, who I wanna become or at least go towards. I don't wanna bore you up with my story of madness and dissapointment, so I'll just wrap it up. This will be my calorie counter, my diary and whatever I feel like writing. Peace.