A September thought I just found...

Special K....It is about having a bowl of it for breakfast and a bowl of it for dinner. Bin your lunch at school and your total cal intake would be 100 + 140 (plus skimmed milk) = 240, very low number, yay! You see I’ve been like trashing my lunch at school every day but I get really hungry home so when someone pressures me I easily eat and then I binge awfully. So I thought what would happen if they saw me eat, but they wouldn’t know how little I’m actually eating. It’s brilliant this diet. It goes along perfectly with my needs because 140 calories in breakfast then bin lunch, then get home and 100 calories at dinner…one step closer to perfection!! This is my method to bin lunch. I get to school very early in the morning so I look for an empty toilet and there I do the trick because I pour everything into a plastic bag. No one notices because the doors are shut and people are talking. And no one sees me walking around with my lunchbox to the toilet because they are too sleepy so they don’t realize. Then I have 3 minutes between classes so I wait for proper timing and put the bag with food in my pocket and go bin it. No one notices. It’s perfect. I’ve been doing it for a while, it’s magical. The only thing that isn’t magical is my nanny asking what am I gonna eat at night, that sucks because I give in and binge but when she knows I’m on a diet she’ll respect me because she knows I’m eating. Brilliant. God I can’t stop thinking right now. First about a device that came home earlier and I’ll try it later (it’s for your hands not to sweat and that would basically change my life as I know it). Then, my mom’s b-day is on Sunday so I’ve got to figure out what to get her and I know we’ll go out somewhere nice to eat…Damn. I’ll try not to think about it right now. Third is the pressure school puts on my shoulders but I’ll try to overcome stress by focusing on my new skinny strategy and my new shampoo for growing hair (it smells so nice I forget about math classes!). Finally, EATING. Everything about it disturbs me. But I’ll try not to sweat it because I’ve finally got a north and on Monday I’ll start my diet and no one will stop me. Its Friday so there’s still 3 more days of pigness to go. Oh Ana help me. Well…that’s about it, my day, my life, my dreams, my worries. I’ll promise I’ll be better tomorrow after the huge binging of today. Everything will look better in the morning and I’ve got a diet, a special K diet, to rely on. I so want to be magical, just as magical as those eyes!